Friday, 26 August 2011

Tentry Ayu Megasari / Tenn
Just adorable. a word that i can described bout this cute little girl. we've known each other since 2009 on myspace but we didn't talked much on that years cuz i'm not kinda
talkative person. shy. yet lately, she added me up on facebook. i'm so suprised when she still remember me. we started wall to wall till' we had some bonds. i meant, a really good relationship.

she was like a big sister to me; kind, most caring person, friendly and swear to god, i adored her style!! many people; which were our facebook pals said we're just like twins. i'm not sure which part does it related, but sometimes i get my self a mirror and yessss,i've realized we had the physically commons. our nose, eyes, the way we smile and our hairstyle too!! but nawww, mine sucks.

her's wayyyyy cooler than mine. no doubt.

today i just received a letter from her. only god knows how exciting i am to open up the packages. actually the packages was sent to andy's cuz i just got into new house thus i'm not sure bout the address. so a very kind heart boyfriend of mine,zhuyin cloud willing to help me to take the packages from andi.

one more special thing bout us is..we do loved pink!!!!! <33

 A friend is a person with whom I may be sincere. Before him I may think aloud. I am arrived at last in the presence of a man so real and equal, that I may drop even those undermost garments of dissimulation, courtesy, and second thought, which men never put off, and may deal with him with the simplicity and wholeness with which one chemical atom meets another. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

 Men kick friendship around like a football, but it doesn't seem to crack. Women treat it like glass and it goes to pieces. ~Anne Morrow Lindbergh

 Yes'm, old friends is always best, 'less you can catch a new one that's fit to make an old one out of. ~Sarah Orne Jewett

 Many a person has held close, throughout their entire lives, two friends that always remained strange to one another, because one of them attracted by virtue of similarity, the other by difference. ~Emil Ludwig

 The best rule of friendship is to keep your heart a little softer than your head. ~Author Unknown

 I value the friend who for me finds time on his calendar, but I cherish the friend who for me does not consult his calendar. ~Robert Brault

 There is one friend in the life of each of us who seems not a separate person, however dear and beloved, but an expansion, an interpretation, of one's self, the very meaning of one's soul. ~Edith Wharton

heres the things she has posted to me few weeks ago but i just got it today. isn't cute?? :3 umm..i'll think something cute for her, maybe a dress or shirt. for sure it will comes by pink! just like she loves. thanks to my mom cuz she has suggested me something that will surprised her,tenn.

thanks to god for giving me a lots of friend. neither she nor he, both has showed me the truely means of friendship is. thank you so much guys. love you.

listen to :
by stereo skyline


Thursday, 25 August 2011

life wasn't sweet as we thought. thru happiness, someones somewhere might struggling from difficulties. thus, we all should thankful to the God for giving us the easiness thru life. after having our dinner, my pops told me to open up the box; which contains donuts in it. it's one of my favourite cakes. i didn't eat, even touched on the melting choc cuz i'm lil bit full of my dinner's. i just let the donuts on the table, thought i can eat them after several minutes. yet, my sister ate the donuts without asking me first. i'm soo sad.

me and zhuyin cloud. we really had a tons of fun on this nite. my beloved cousin was there too like always. she's kinda chinese mixed face with fairer skin than i am. as u guys can see, we always spend our time together doing things that could added up some joyfulness into our relationship. without him, my life would never be the same.

A man reserves his true and deepest love not for the species of woman in whose company he finds himself electrified and enkindled, but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy.

listen to :
by days diffrence


Tuesday, 23 August 2011

Okay guys, few days ago i was hang out with my pops, my mom, and also my beloved sister Bell Attack (miza) and her boyfriend Zack Attack (akmal). actually i wasn't planned to buy any stuff there, yet after we (me , miza, akmal) had walk over the mall, i saw a little cute pink dress and straight away i grabbed the dress..yeahh i know i looked bad for showing my craziness towards the dress. my bad, guys. i asked the two kiddos; miza and akmal, opinions bout the dress. and yes, they said i'll look cute and beautiful if i wear the dress. i'm so happy and straight away called the sissy; the salesgirl to take the dress to the cashier. after it gets paid, we took a walk at nearby gift shop. my mom was there to a buy silver ring. yup, my mom was soooo into rings, bracelets and stuff. luckily i wasn't like her much. i was bored cuz the two kiddos left me out alone in the gift shop with my mom. thus i circled around the teddy's and i saw lots of snow cap hang over next to handbag's. there, came a cute girl and she asked me whether i want to buy the snow cap. so I've bought one with brown in color which costs only rm14.90!!!!! no doubt, it was so cheaper than my old skull snow cap. for ur info, my mom had pay the cap.

Here's the thing : dress, cap, and two stuff for my hair (I'm not sure what its named by)

girls are so much into cute stuff which we can't deny it especially when it comes to cheap price and affordable to buy. so here's my things that i've bought on that day.



rm23.90 (after 20% discount)

rm169+ ( thanks to my dad for paying this heels for me) :3
actually the heels that my pops paid, was for hari raya but i guessed i wanna buy another barbie shoe (flat shoe). maybe i'll use some of my salary cuz my parents had pay lots for my indulgence. i believed all girls would do the same thing, shopaholic (eventho i'm not kinda goaled myself into it).
fantasy is necessary ingredient in living. it's a way of looking at life thru the end wrong of a telescope.
listen to :
like we used to
by a rocket to the moon
by stephen jerzak

Wednesday, 17 August 2011

friend doesn't only means she/he is the one who mostly talked to us on social network as what happened now. yet she/he is the one who always there for u thru thick and light. so heres my girl, Andi Zephyr; based on 9 years of friendship theres a lot to tell in this blog. for short i believed there are no ones can compete our friendship. i'm saying this because kids nowadays usually labelled a person *which was they met on facebook* as their 'best friend' without knowing them perfectly. i can't simply judge bout it cuz people got rights to do whatever they wanted to.

it was my best nite ever when a best friend of mine, Andi Zephyr has made up a song vid for me. honestly, im kinda tears to shed when i watched this vid. ( i could never get a friend like u do. she's like pain in my ass; always there when i need her ang the best part is she loved to buy me loads of thing such as hello kitty stuff, handbag, dresses, etc. no doubt i will always love her till death do us apart. <33

listen to :
cady groves
(a town like this)

in memories of my late brother, icha a.k.a reafse.

Sunday, 14 August 2011

yes, love wasn't just about happiness and what we always aimed for. based on what i've been thru with my beloved guy, sometimes speaks with tongue  is way better to describe your true feeling rather than speaks with you heart. as i looked into his eyes and hear to his voice; sweet talker things, i doubted. why on earth he talked some rubbish stuff to other bitches?? planned for a date. true. me, myself can't judge any negative thoughts towards him, but for god's fuckin' damn sake; who wants to deny it anyway? after what i've read with my both naked eyes and for sure, i've been born with sanity brain; he was unfaithful towards me. whether unpurposely or fuckin' damn not! bulls**t; that's only how i can describe my feeling thru words.

wish he could earn so much better bitches than i am. fools.
this way up, this way down.

Thursday, 11 August 2011

a girl raised by kittens : thelittlebukowski

men always doubt with girls' sincerity's. though, the frailness in love. as me; myself physically born with female sex usually used the appearance to catch as many bees i can. i labelled myself as butterfly; grown from the lowest nature's circle of living. and yet, it's become one of the prettiest things; lived through patterns and colors. these type of creature earn wealthiness through others'. yes, they have to fly; searching the summer to live for but the other side of the coin, they suck all the things made by others'. we are the sex of female should have know the risk when it comes to fall in love. plan the best strategies as the first step before jumping off  through world's desire. yet, many of us be the failure; cries for nothing. mostly cause by,men. i'm not generous enough giving all mine to him. for God's sake; didn't u realized that u earn nothing even an inch of goodness by done that? that's what i called as foolishness. luckily we have been given friends to fix the foolishness. as the matter of the fact, they'll light the burden of us thus, brush all the tears to shed. that's what friends for.

u may beautiful in all ways in positive side; on the other side of truthness, you're zero can full of dusk and loneliness. you're just being stupid by act like you're the smartest one, but the real on earth is; you're not. don't blame the other sex for causing u down on your own knees. we given by logically ideologies to think, but only things we do was throw the abilities. i can see that, girls. such a waste. be ready because there are so many things around we have to face in the future. always down to earth and learn from the oldest. they know better; this way to the right end. go figure.

''we will rot in the ground get over it''

listen to :
in loving memory of u despite
by asking alexandria

sometimes we didn't realized how deep we have been drown into hatred. it was a girl who almost keen to seek revenge; of her sorrowful past life. Yes,the world wasn't really kind to us; mostly we had to struggle things to achieve our mindless self indulgence. it's like a butterfly flew freely beneath the skies. humans are designed from many things,but loneliness isn't one of 'em. they always missed the great parts because their blindness; to see how beautiful things will head to. these man always being ungrateful. blaming their God for fooling 'em. they would never know,they're the one who played the role. the God has created us to bring joys; and fix our feebleness independently. yet,we are the imbecile one,back down ourselves into ignorance.

observed the ones who lived perseverance. neither she nor he,both done proved they can walked alone through the difficulties. it's a shame for us the irreproachable cannot do the same things. even though it's easy as it done.



Monday, 8 August 2011


You talk mad shit and say it without a trace! Come on and be a big girl and say it to my face! If u cant walk the walk then dont talk the talk! Cuz FAKE lil bitches get outlined in chalk!!

I keep it real and thats a promise.I may be a bitch but at least i'm honest.When i walk by,u stop and stare.Well keep looking cuz i dont care.I have my own life and style.Not trying to please u or make u smile! When it comes to competition you are out.Now shut ur hatin' ASS and keep me out of ur mouth!!
Sorry for saying the bad words..honestly im not into chiding peeps but lately my deary haters who im not supposed to mention about his/her name was trying to break me u can see well i had turn out from kinda metal/scene looks to dolly form.. *dolly - its a style with big eyes,cute face,have a great make up on and cute dresses..only few of u know that im not a really girlish before but after few years have been passed by,i took the decision to change and do the makeover on my style..back to the years ago im not a girl who loves to wear some fancy rings,bracelet and dresses cuz im into hardcore and stuff..i loved to hang out with my 'hardcore' buddies do the lepak2 thing,gigs and jamming..well it happened on my age of 16 to 18..i can say that most of my boyfriends were that type of genre,u know guys with long hair,got piercing on their lippy brat,monroe and septum..OMG they were so hot on that time (alahh,dulu je tp skang cm hampeh je muke masing2) mostly listen to whitechapel,suicide silence,cannibal corpse,caliban,black dahlia mureder,job for a cowboy,miss may i,chealsea grin,carnifex,etc..i dont wanna talk much bout my past life but i wanna show u some of my old pictures when i was that type of girl..

Jyeahh..i look like horrid with short hair..this sign picture was taken on 2 years ago for my buddy,Otis :(

Ignore the hibi pleaseee..its been put by a best friend of mine,Andi Zephyr :p
Damnnn! ive just realised that i got big boobs..LOL (ignore me please) but yeahh imma \m/

Im kinda missed my old hair especially the layers cut and the fringe..ergghh!!

Keep it real babehhh \m/ 2008 (Andi Zephyr and Amy Kitty)

Well u can see me in bra (:

After few years of my glory *perasaan :p ive decided to change my lifestyle to new page of style..well maybe i sound like a POSER or being a POSEUR for changing it but who cares rite? like an old saying ''you're what u eat and u're what u wear''..i dont give a fuck on those people who says imma big fat poser..everybody needs to make a change rite?especially when they turn older like already 20 years mannn and i need to start to find a good job,a good husband and a better life..isnt that wrong????xkan nk duduk ditampuk lama..hmm...i had many friends who hard to find good job out there especially when it comes to government thing..mmg patut la sape nk bagi keje klu kau pakai cm x semenggah je..btindik sane sini..setakat keje kt mall kau xpayah blaja tinggi pn xpe..tapi sampai bile korang nk keje kt tempat2 camtu??nak sara diri sendiri pn xlepas..after realised all the needs that brings crucial to my future that im heading to,ive decided to wrap up whole things especially my geek style and my attitude..thus ive learnt some of the "dolly things" from a friend of mine,Qiqi Bunny :3 thanks qi for making my looks way better than the old one! yippie!! i got my own new looks and my new hair so be it..after done the transforn thing,i had searching for a good boyfriend not the geek one like im used to date with..kinda lame!! so now im into Kim as u know the gay bieber dude (andi said)..ive tried to fix the emptyness and mistakes that ive done before..i wanna be a good person in the future so i took the chance that my pops gave me to redeem my mistakes..that is continuing my degree and stay at home like 'anak bapak'..i guess u wanna see the new me so lets check it out :D

The dolly eyes thing :)
Do i look like a barbie in this photo?? :3
So now i hope u'll get the point..its not really a big sins if u try to do some changing in other word to make ur life way better than now..becuz someday u'll have ur own family,ur own kids where by u never wanted them to waste their life making friends with some bunch of jerks..we;re the grown up people,so wake up mann!! change ur life to better one and let other people give respect on u..out~

Dear haters,
                          Dont hate me bcuz i wasnt who u thought i was or wanted me to be.Dont hate cause im cute and sweet..hate cause u can compete..Its better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you are not.So dont hate for what u cant imitate..either love or hate me,both ways..Im on ur mind..and im flattered (: PLUS,i learned to always forgive my enemies,nothing annoys them more.. - ME

Wednesday, 3 August 2011

Mood : Love <33

First and foremost i'd like to say thanks for stoping by here eventho my blog wasnt creative enough like yours (: okay people,today on my 7th posts,i'd love to let u know bout my most beloved guy,Zhuyin Cloud (Hakim). this is my 2nd posts featuring him on my blog..well lately ive been thru a lot of obstacles to bring our relationship to the next level..the reason why im posting this blog was because he means world to me,i need him like my whole life..hes my hubby-to-be and fullstop! i never wish to have any 3rd party in our i guess uve heard me clearly ^^

"if i walk,would u run? If i stop would u walk? If i say ure the one,would u believe me?"

Heres the things i wanna tell u from our beginning love story :p :
  • Dear papa,hakim yg mama plg sayang..mama tau mama selalu mrh2 papa eventho hal tu remeh temeh je..mama jaat sbb slalu wt papa susah ati..maafkn mama ye papaku :(
  • Mama syg papa sepenuh ati mama,xde yg lain melainkan papa sorg je! kalau papa cube2 cari perempuan len,siaplah mama karate teruk2..hee xD
  • Honestly,i approved u as my friend,my shoulder to cry,my big brother who always there to advice me when im wrong,my teacher who teach me how beautiful love is,my boyfriend who always talk sweet things to me,and lastly as my hubby who always be my pillow,my blanket,hug me around u whenever i need it,and teach me how to be a good wifey. <33
  • U know what papa? the sweetest thing about u was seeing u pouting at me when i eager to u not to do that and this..mama tau mama agak 'queen control' tp papa still big boss mama ^^
  • Papa,do u really know what ive been dreaming bout us on our future?umm..mama selalu byangkn byk benda bile teringat kt papa..i feel like everything are possible to be true when i have u..
  • Mama nk papa tau mama ikhlas dgn hbgan kite ni..yesss!!!! kdang2 mama slalu mrajuk sbb papa ni x punctual tp mama happy cuz kite xpnah lgi gado bsar siap ada tumbuk2 sume..sumpah xpnah ada kn papa?hee~papa xpnah marah mama wlaupn skali..klu papa marah mama pn xpe,cuz mama tau nk pujuk,amek ati papa alek.. xD
  • Mulai dri harini,mama janji akn kurgkn marah2 mama kt papa..mama kcian tgk papa wat muke sedih bile kna mrh :p Saya rindu,sayang,cinta awak HAKIM <33

"If i could say what i wanna say,i'd say i wanna blow u with u every nite and im squeezing u too tite..If i could see whai i wanna see,i wanna see u go down on one knee,marry me today..Im wishing my life away with these things i'll never say.."
  • Isnt that sweet papa if we could realized our dreams come true?im hoping that i day u'll down on ur one knee,proposed me to be yours..ahhhh!! please God,let the time passed quickly thus i can be his wife.. :(
  • Mama promise,if kite marry mama akan jd ur best wifey in the world..mama akan suapkan papa makan,basuhkan baju papa,mandikan papa,sikatkan rambut papa,masakkan yg sedap2 utk papa tiap2 hari..i always dreaming of waiting u at home..tuggu papa balik keje..mama dan anak2 kite akan tunggu papa kt umah.. ^^
  • Papa jgn risau sayang..mama akan selalu ada utk papa dalam ketika susah dan senang..sebab setiap halangan yg terjadi akan menguatkan lagi hbugan kite ni..mama dah letakkan kpercayaan mama kt please hold on ur promises towards me..
  • Papa kena ingat yg mama hanya utk papa dan papa hanya utk mama..thats it.

Dream without fear,love without limits - Jordan Witzigreuter

  • Pix kat atas ni mama terjumpa time surf yahoo image..bile mama tgk pix ni i was like 'woahhhh,i want the same thing happen to me too!!' giler a ramainya baby nk kna jage >.< but jgn isau papa,1 day mama akn bg papa anak yg rmai bg meriah sket umah kite..xdela sunyi je kn xD *cam larat je nak jage ramai2 anak ni..haha :3
  • Haishhh..telling u the truth,u deserved to get the best from me..papa nk ape ckp je,mama akan cube ur wifey-to-be so i must obey all the advice that uve spoken to me..example : mama,jgn pkai sexy sgt nnti ada laki pndang2 mama..hehe..lagi satu 'mama.makan byk sikit,bg badan tu naik..jgn rsau mama xkn gemuk pnya..hhaha *sorry papa :p
  • Well,mama ada search byk love quotes utk means a lot to me if u really understand the meaning of the quotes <33

He stole my heart.So i stole his last name

  • There is only one happiness in life -- to love and to be love.
  • What I needed most was to love and to be loved, eager to be caught. Happily I wrapped those painful bonds around me; and sure enough, I would be lashed with the red-hot pokers or jealousy, by suspicions and fear, by burst of anger and quarrels.
  • "When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams."
  • You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
  • To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
  • The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.
  • If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go.
  • Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves.
  • The best thing about me is you.
  • Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime.

Zhuyin Cloud Kitty Goregeous

Zhuyin Cloud Kitty Goregeous
Zhuyin Cloud Kitty Goregeous
Zhuyin Cloud Kitty Goregeous

I wonder what You think of me
When I put Your name in spotlights
And run into the dark night all alone?
I live like I'm changing with the seasons
When You give me every reason to stay by Your side
But still I hide

It's no secret
I know everybody knows
I need You
I need You
It's no secret
That I'm afraid to be alone
I need You
I need You now

I gotta get this off my chest
I've been drowning in the ocean
Pledging my devotion to the one I left
For something in between
My hands and the unseen
You've been here every day
I ran away

Every single second
Every minute that goes by
I need You
: Nevertheless - Its No Secret
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'


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